I can’t think here.
The sheer weight hurts there.
I fall on my face here,
Waiting for the hospital boys
To take me to rest there.
It’s not fake if it hurts there.
I’ll worship my peace there.
In the ward, I’ll be here.
No one to fuck with there,
No responsibility.
God has no place here.
I’ll visit the tiny chapel there.
Alone in my brain, I will be.
I’ll go back when I am ready;
Until then, I’ll be here.
If I don’t come back, don’t worry.
I’m better off alone there.
I’ll love you from over here.
It’s not your fault,
At all.