The Creative Process
"Because if you’re all alone in this world..."
In the “Writing on Psychedelics” series, I delve into a singular subject while under the carefully administered influence of a medically-prescribed psychedelic substance. This is a controlled experiment and should not be replicated without proper medical supervision. Proceed with caution.
Think. Stop. For a moment. Breathe. Think. First thing… What is it? Expand, expound, compose, repose and put it down… Make it stone. It’s all one big bet really. Its a bet that if I write there are at least a few people that relate to it. That the first thing that comes out and is authentic can be felt by someone else other than me or my spouse. It’s a bet. A good bet? Who the fuck knows.
What would Jesus do? Who cares… It’s time do you. Its not time to find an audience or plan your marketing schemes—leave that to the suits. It’s time to write, and write, and write and hope and pray and say that someone out there who’s lost their way—or found it again—can be swayed by what you lay down beneath you. Assemble the parts, and build it up, it won’t be greater than the sum of its parts—at least to most. But those that know, that have been low and sown their oats, and hear your tone will relate to it. And if there’s no one out there to relate to it, then you’re all alone. But that’s a nihilistic approach, and you should not think about that too much. If there’s 1,000 people out there willing to pay $5 a month that’s $60,000 a year. To be heard—loud and clear.
Fuck that… Holy shit, what a big bet. You have to actually think for a moment and contemplate that someone would find your shit and meditate, find their place, inside your space. Then pay their hard earned dollars in this capitalistic shit, trash world to you. They want to hear you. They want to know more about you. Because when they listen to you are they heard?
When do you stop? Never? Is there no one willing to even pay a penny? Then, keep searching. Because if you’re all alone in this world, and no one can relate to what you have to say, then its time to go. The creative process is something of a bet. It’s not a scheme, it’s authentic. It’s not pretty but its decent. Its a least worth a pretty penny. It’s better than the alternative.